Sun & Moon

Sun & Moon

I am reminded all too often,

That like the sun and moon,

We have a whole world between us.

Where I am naught but a reflection,

You stand alone, shining, daily,

In all of your radiant beauty,

And all I can do is bask in it,

Hoping your light will continue,

Fighting my shadows away.

Perhaps, though, that itself,

Is what makes you so beautiful –

Your unattainability.

I am reminded all too often,

That like the moon and sun,

We have a whole world between us.

Where I am naught but a premonition,

You lie in wait, glowing, nightly,

In all of your elegant sombre,

And all I can do is herald it,

Making people wish it comes soon.

Perhaps, though, that itself,

Is what makes you so beautiful –

Your clockwork probability.

We are bound to stand opposite,

Never meeting but in stories.

None are more star-crossed than us.

Two halves, wanting to be whole.

You are only wanted every morning,

Because I swallow the sky each night.

I am only allowed to appear at all,

Because I may share in your light.

We are nothing without each other,

And yet everything on our own.

Why must my two halves,

Both made to be complimentary,

Yet tragically ambivalent in nature,

Continue to fight over my sky,

Instead of learning to share it?

~Emdaisy1

 

This is merely the product of a wide-awake mind with too much caffeine, too little sleep, and far too many thoughts. Often, I feel like I have two sides – a sun and a moon. While my “sun” side comes out during the times I talk to people, or I’m at school, or I have to be social to any degree, my “moon” side tends to be closer to who I am when I’m alone. Being out and about I am more like the sun, I act happy and, well, sunny – only occasionally falsely, often because that’s how I’m really feeling at the time. However, I burn out quickly and retreat back to solitude, hiding in my own mind again. That’s when I’m more like the moon. I become far more contemplative, opting to finish processing what my sunny side took in, and then mull it all over in peace & quiet. For a long time (and still on occasion) I struggled with feeling like each side of me wanted to be the other side, and I was somehow being two-faced. Lately, though, I’ve been getting better at accepting the fact that both sides are equal parts of me – like both the sun AND moon are needed for a full day to happen, both sides of me are needed to make me, well, me.

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